I bought a bag of Starburst for my grandson who just visited (and gone already). I watched them drive off with my usual (these days) intense sorrow since I just do not see them often enough and I’m not handling that well amidst so much grief on every level.
When JM left, he left a few in the bag along with some empty wrappers. Too big a temptation and I ate one, then figured I’d eat the rest. I had been coughing a little and feeling congested which due to my allergies might not indicate the crud, but my will power had ebbed.
But as I reached for the next candy, it occurred to me to empty the bag and find out just how many were left, so that when I ate the last one (off my diet), I wouldn’t do it with a lack of awareness, that I’d appreciate that last one in the way it deserved.
I love words so I write them. I’ve been doing that since I was old enough to read. I am a published literary writer and I was an adjunct English professor at Northern Michigan University for many years. I write and live and love off the grid on 35 acres and a trout stream in Michigan’s Upper Peninsula with my son, Joshua, who has Down Syndrome, and with an English Shepherd dog named Maggie, and with my husband when he can make it here which isn’t often. This blog started out being about my work, and it will continue to be. ( I’m working on a novel about premonitions and dreams.) But this blog is also about living off the grid and about my experimentation with diet—most recently the Carnivore Diet. I started on the Ketogenic diet, but have moved into Carnivore. How long, I don’t know. But I’ve become interest in the effects of diet on not just my health, but on creativity. And I’m interested in the effects of the diet on my dreams.
Ah, dreams... The day before my son was born, my mother “dreamed” or was told my son would have Down Syndrome, something she told my brother ahead of time. I’ve never known what to make of that. So I’m interested in prophetic dreams, lucid dreaming, creativity and dreams, night terrors. Who isn't interested in that? I’m interested in Freud (more Jung) and Einstein’s theories of time and how their ideas inform my dreams. I’m interested in mining a deeper relationship with a dream world not confined to daytime experiences, and how the night might inform a more fully imagined daytime “reality.” And vice-versa. Which is the dream?? I’m exploring dreams of all sorts. Come explore with me…
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4 thoughts on “Carnivore Dreams – Last Starburst”
“so that when I ate the last one (off my diet), I wouldn’t do it with a lack of awareness”. What an interesting thought/ strategy.
This post is not about the simple Stardust but goes so much deeper. I keep chocolates in my bedside drawer and I eat it consciously too…when I need some cocoa to elevate my spirits🙂. Hugs.
L.E.K. 
“so that when I ate the last one (off my diet), I wouldn’t do it with a lack of awareness”. What an interesting thought/ strategy.
Yeah, we never know when we’re about to do the last thing, talk to someone the last time… thanks for your note. 🙂
This post is not about the simple Stardust but goes so much deeper. I keep chocolates in my bedside drawer and I eat it consciously too…when I need some cocoa to elevate my spirits🙂. Hugs.
Thanks, Smitha. My blogging family has really made up for some of the folks I’ve lost!